trip to cali!

it is official. we bought our tickets for cali. going to cali. going to cali! we are leaving on monday the 5th, going to knotts berry farms in the evening with tony's sister shannon. then tony's birthday is tuesday the 6th, so we will probably do something cool. we are going to disneyland sometime that week. not sure when. also we need to go to the tar pits, some cool eateries, going to san diego to see my cousin kris and her baby keezy. some time i hope to see miss tasha, i guess i am pretty far from you, so i don't know how that will work, maybe that weekend, we don't leave until  the morning of the 11th, then we are seeing the seahawks play in seattle when we get baclk. i am so excited. we are finally going to see where tony grew up, together. he went on a trip back to iowa for mine, so it's my turn. 3 more weeks!. don't know if i will have a job, because of the no unpaid vacation, but hello no answer and it's been 3 weeks. i don't fucking care, communist bastards that they are!

monday monday monday

today is beatiful. the chill in the air this morning. getting up when i should. being to work early. having my coffee. only having to work until ten. sending off packages. cooking a new dish. taking a ten minute nap. having more coffee. coffee being free today. petting my dogs. loving that my tony sends me the longest text ever. all the test says is i love you. he said he loved me 20 times. remembering that i need to control my moodiness. i set a goal yesterday. i only freaked out once. having a good outfit day. not obsessing over my negatives. feeling the fan blow on my body. watching the leaves fall off trees. today is monday. today is a good day.

today is stupid!

So i have discovered that i am a toally freakoid.. not that anyone didn't know that, but i have some issues, no comments please regarding this. i need to learn how to not freak out on tony. i literally scream and holler and call him names and just freak out. over stupid stuff he says. well, he keeps egging me on because it finds it a turn on, but it's fucking stupid. so stupid that i want to just smack him. but i freaked out in the drive thru of starbucks and i think that people heard us. a little embarrasing, ya know. i only have one excuse that aunt flo visited and i am starting to push through my demon horns? i don't know anymore, we just havn't been on good terms with out things. not anything really bad just that i am irritated when he is around, especially today. i guess i am just blabbing and people need space and his new schedule is kind of hard on both of us. they say if you can survive the first year of a shift workers schedule you can make it forever, well if i don't kill him first. on a serious note we are fine. i would rather he would leave when i am bitchy, like to a mountain and stay there. boys are stupid, and i hate that i love one. i couldn't live without it, because i would be sad but grrrr.... it's really hot today and i am lazy. i have to work all day tomorrow and i don't want to because i hate my job. we recently had corporate from san fransico do a signing audit when i was gone and we failed miserably. stupid underpaid retarded responsibilities i have to endure for retail. so i bought a new shirt yesterday, see what they do to you, piss you off so you have to have retail therapy to bring them in money. whatever i hate things to day. tomorrow will be better. i know it beause i will make it better, till then, i hate today and it's stupid.

new car

 

Tony and his sexy car

Tony and i got a new car 2 weeks ago. we traded in the truck, to get our 2009 hyundai sonata! it is so pretty! We got he sports model which is came in black with chrome trim, the rims, and a v6 engine. it has a ipod connector in the middle console that is controlled by the buttons for the radio. so rad! it totally smells like new car too! and it is the smoothest ride ever, and you have to be so careful not to speed. going 120 i think would be no problem, i didn't do that, but if i could... i am finally excited that tony actually did this for us. he had his truck for 10 years, got his monies worth and then some. it was time. only problem is that we have 2 car paymens, but that will make us budget better. and i don't necessarily get to drive it as my car, i get to drive the 4-runner, which is fine, because i can put all of my cool stuff from the mirror and take my dogs to the beach and if it gets dirty, well whatever i clean it up. so our transportation troubles have been solved. no on to moving out... our goal has been moved up to march, just in time for tax returns. probably going to rent a house, hopefully with a yard for our dog. so people could actually come and visit me next year!