Yes, may i help you... sorry i'm not taking any orders... get it your damn self.. wait, would you like a straw for that?

This has beent the heaviest and most emotional i have ever been while being on the rag. Seriously, i am sooo tired, anxious, bitchy, sad, depressed.. all in one time. they should have a name for it. oh they do.. it's your fucking period. this is crazy. i cannot sleep, then all i do is sleep. i just want to have crazy sex, but that's messy. Then i want to kill people. I am paranoid that everyone hates me at work and i am doing a bad job. Then i want to cry and curl up into a ball and sleep my life away. then i remember i can't do that, because i am the only one making and bringing in money, right now. which adds to the pain of this moment. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Then i am totally crazy juice and fruit, like those fruit a day things that are 2 bucks a pop with chunks of fruit in them. i  am being cheap and not getting them, but it's all i want. fuck this sucks. i just want someone to hold me, but then when i got comfortable i am afraid i would try to ravenously attack them and kill them. Maybe i am a cat, those are my tendencies lately. maybe i should get a cat. this is stupid. i need a vacation. someone should come visit me. or call me. i love myself  today, not like yesterday.......