Tuesday, June 23, 2009

r.i.p gramdpa


So on monday june 22, my grandfather passed away at his home in scranton, in his sleep. he had been having many complications while i was back visiting. he was diagnosed with stomach cancer, had the pump put in the day i was leaving, also upon visiting him i discovered he had parkinsons. among many major health problems. i was not as close as i would have liked, but that was how he was. our family has issues and sometimes death just makes it harder when guilt likes to be a blanket, without giving us warmth in the coldest of times. there will no service, memorial or gravside ceremony of any kind. he had no money for end of life services. so my uncle jim is driving up from houston, to take care of the details. he will be cremated and later laid to rest somewhere in greene county, i believe. my dad and sister and i will have our own wake on thursday. the doctors gave him a year to life and recommend he live in a nursing facility for veterns, he refused the day before his death. i fell so unemotional writing this, because i had deeply saddened yet so confused on how the family is handling this. no matter how much someone is hated they should receive love on their upon their death. my rule, simeple as that. but, that is life and services are expensive. i am just really glad i got to see him before i left and know that he did love us all in his own way. rest in peace grandpa bob.

5 comments:

Angela said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I'm sure he was thrilled to see you too. Greene County is a wonderful place to be laid to rest.

serialstar said...

I think that it's great that you were able to see him before he passed. It was perfect that you were there when you were. I really hope that everyone is well in your fam...

sisterlovemoon said...

yea i am just really worried about my uncle tim he has lived with my grandpa for what seems forever. he is lonely and i miss him too.

Sierra said...

I'm glad you were able to be with him while back. I'm so sorry, Erin! Sending my loves to you and yer family!!

:) said...

that's great that you got to see him! Love yous and yours.