Success is in the beholder...

So i have come to the conclusion that i have been just flowing about in this world. i haven't really conducted any progress in the sense of myself. i have just been getting by. it needs to end now. so i am totally put in 100% towards getting my real estate liscence. it will be awesome and i will do very well at it! i told my grama june about it and she was so wonderful. she reminded me of how i will do well because i am a good person, i care about people and that i am genuinely honest and look towards the good in all. gee, i forgetten that. but, i am not going to do that to myself, anymore! i will succeed. see i will be starting out as an assistant after i get all of my testing and trainging out of the way. i just hope that it won't cause conflict between me and a certain person. you know i will assisting tony's mom and she can be demanding and very certain of her ways. which is not a bad thing, just i have a hard time adjusting to something i don't know much about and for someone who is all knowing... well, it could be difficult. but, i will work through it and it will make me that much stronger! i want my life to be my own. not a making of under someone else's lifestyle. i want tony and i to have our own house and a car that runs good and monies so we can do our own adventures. so actually there is a lot of pressure for me, but it is good. it pushes me to be the best of who i am and will be. so this is the beging, i hope, for a wonderful future and hopefully tony might pop a question i have been waiting for like forever. i just have to get rid of something. so much damn stupid baggage i have accumulated. i would like new baggage perhaps some louis vitton. you know the good stuff. anyways, i will end this ranting and do something productive like maybe put my bra back on. god, my tits hurt! they feel like damb boulders hanging off of me. i don't want them anymore, or at least for now. but i guess i am stuck with them. tis life. love to you all!!!