These past couple fo weeks have been a real eye opener for me. For some reason i have been so outspoken about things that i should remember to not have to say everything about everyone. i have just come to the realization that i need to focus on my self more and quit worrying about others, because it is so hard to put that in my system of thinking. so i need to change my way of thinking on those matters, that's all. It's just so hard when you have feelings about someoen that you didn't think could exist and you could never possibly could be. i was wrong and cannot accept that i could feel that way again. So all i have to do is not go there and i am not. i just wanted something more that what someome would want from me. and you know that's all right. Because i have someone in my life so dear to me that's all that i need. i know this person will be with me till the end and would go to the depths for me. i was just having too much fun being free from things for while and i think i went too far. Too far for me and saneness. But it's done and no i have not lost my faith in humanity. I have just maybe put up a fence that i should have put up a long time ago. That even if you give you're all you maynot be returned anything., because some peole are just not that way. i need to learn to be more cautious with that and my feeling, cause they always seem to be hurt. So maybe i have been negative on some aspects, but had a few kinks to work out and they did. So bearing with my rantings and cthanks for razienss. I feel good things coming and i can't wait for some new begingings.
I am also looking into some new hobbies. i am going to take a cake decorating class . yea i know like i need to be around goodies all the time, but i love to decorate things. I am definately going to start making more cards, i just love all the cool stamps that they have out there! Their are workshops that i am invited to, i just never go, but i really should start looking into them. and i have make a vow to call my grandparents more often so i can be on the up and up.. i got to talk to my grampy bob today and it was so comforting and to know that my uncle is doing good on his own, awakens my thoughts of i need to get a move on with my life goals. so just some inspirtation and realizations for this week.. this seems to be going good. and to all my people.. i love you all so much and we really need to have a sit down sometime.. maybe pick a day and time that we pick a place all at the same time and have some moments. The power of friendship is so important to me and i know it is to you, too.. so let's bring some powet with in all of us.. i am just so proud of you all for being their for me and being a constant souce of support and laughter because you all crazy. crazy lady.
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what you give your energy to will grow... this is something that worked for me. when i wanted to stop doing "fill in the blank", i would say "I really want to stop doing ""!! I realized I was still putting energy in that direction, thinking about the very things i did not want. sooo, IMAGINED something different and i gave my energy and love to the new creation...which lead to a snow ball of beautiful new creation in my life.. cuz i focused on what i did want rather than what i had already experienced and had not worked for me so well. you can use this method for so many aspects of life.
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