There was a time in my life when I felt like I could changed the world with just my opinion on life. I know now that it doesn't quite work that way. I don't always get listened to, which now i have a tendency to let it slide. I just don't have the voice that i used to. Maybe because I am older now and i haven't found the niche that I thougth i would have by now. Or maybe because i have let it slide my self. To think that myself would have allowed my powerful voice about things so important to me slide right out and be put on the back burner. Tisk-Tisk, i say. But, what it really is, that i have become bitter about people and their feel sorry for me because i screwed up and didn't make the right choices crap. Oh and the they don't treat me right, so i am going to make it better by trying to get their good side and hope that they will eventually become a better person. To tell you the truth, there are extrememly bad people out there. They don't get better and they won't. People that hurt you and don't seem to care, will never care. No matter how hard you try or how much you look inside for the good. Yes everybody does have good in them, it's just that the bad is so much flattering for them. So this is why, people, that i have lost my voice, because i have found another one. I Found a voice to let people know that it's ok, to not like things or people. Not everyone has to be everything to you. IT's ok to think that people can't get better, some just don't and won't. And when you can accept this as a whole, which is incredibly hard to admit, it will awaken you to realize that all you have is yourslef and that's ok. Because in the end that's all that matters, that's what we strive to do, make a difference until we are gone. It doesn't have to be with everyone, either. Because the people you purposly hurt whether it's intentional or not, will always continue to do it, in very unintenitonal ways. it doesn't mean that you can't be friends with them, it just means that you should never cound on them to be their for you in the end. only a select few can do that for you. 'i guess all this rambling on may offend some people's belief's . Yet i believe that it's ok not to have to get along with everyone just because somebody wants you to. We all see different things in different people. so just remember that everybody has their ways about them and respect that. Maybe they can't explain it and they shouldn't always have to. Just try to believe they are also trying to protect themselves as well. Because that what it really is all about . so goodnite to all those you really care and you know who you are..
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its always important to remember that there is always hope that people can change for the better, but also that it is not your responsibility to make sure that they do. you can't do much for someone who has no interest in changing, and it can be really damaging for you to be putting a lot of energy into something and getting nothing but frustration in return. I hope that you are not losing your faith in humanity though, because you are a person whose faith in people and their potential can be contagious, and i think in that way your opinion can change the world. But its different when you're dealing with someone who is just plain destructive to themselves and everyone around them and nothing that you do is making a difference. You have to know when to say when, for your own good. You don't deserve to be mistreated by anyone.
I know people can change for the better and i hope that many can. it's just that i have lost energy in the ones who don't even try. they have a sense of defeat and their is nothing i can do. i haven't lost my faith in humanity at all. i just found of part of it that now i can just understand better. i will always try to be faithful in everyone, i just have to learn to walk away from the ones who just don't understand my position, ya know.
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